Guys guys guys…I have so much to tell you. So much wonderful news that I hope will be of encouragement to you today.
My last post was about the desires God placed in my heart, and how I would stop at nothing to accomplish the dreams and plans He has for me. I talked about how I spent my first semester of college in doubt. In this post, I’m going to tell you why I should have never doubted God, and why you shouldn’t either.
I know most of you probably know the fig tree story from Matthew, but if not, here it is:
18-20 Early the next morning Jesus was returning to the city. He was hungry. Seeing a lone fig tree alongside the road, he approached it anticipating a breakfast of figs. When he got to the tree, there was nothing but fig leaves. He said, “No more figs from this tree—ever!” The fig tree withered on the spot, a dry stick. The disciples saw it happen. They rubbed their eyes, saying, “Did we really see this? A leafy tree one minute, a dry stick the next?”
21-22 But Jesus was matter-of-fact: “Yes—and if you embrace this kingdom life and don’t doubt God, you’ll not only do minor feats like I did to the fig tree, but also triumph over huge obstacles. This mountain, for instance, you’ll tell, ‘Go jump in the lake,’ and it will jump. Absolutely everything, ranging from small to large, as you make it a part of your believing prayer, gets included as you lay hold of God.”
This story may seem like just a simple proof of God’s capability of miracles to his disciples, but it is so much more than that. He is capable of the smallest and the biggest of things. He wants us to have faith in Him and to stop doubting Him. I think most of the time it’s His timing that tends to throw us off, because we are very impatient beings…or at least I know I am.
I spent months thinking I was heading down the wrong path for my future, major and school-wise. I started off so confident in these plans that God had given me a vision of, and slowly I became very doubtful of them. I felt like God was holding back opportunities for me, and that eventually led me to believe that I wasn’t supposed to even be at the college I was at. Over Christmas break I spent hours looking at other schools, looking at different majors and different programs. I was desperate for answers and a defined path to take. I finally gave in, and gave my desperation to God. He gave me the assurance and peace that I was on the right track major-wise. But, I was still begging for clarity on what school I needed to be at. Was I in the right place?
The first week back at school, I visited a new church. At the end of the service, the preacher prayed over us, and suddenly I felt a warmth in my heart. It was confirmation from God that I was certainly at the right school. I didn’t question Him, although I still had tons of questions. I decided to meet with a career counselor that week. Best decision ever. I had a long talk with Daniel. I told him my dreams and the things I’m passionate about. I told him how I’d been struggling. He not only made me feel so much better about the path I was on, but he also gave me amazing connections! He ended up sending my Youtube channel to several people on campus in attempt to get my jobs to build my portfolio and to get some experience. God provided for me through Daniel.
The next week, I get an email from a girl I’d been dying to work for all last semester for my college’s blog. She was offering me a paid job to do what I LOVE and what was perfect for building my portfolio and getting experience. The same day, I get a call from my dad telling me that he had talked to someone, and I was getting an internship this summer at St. Jude (which just so happens to be one of my dream places to work at in the future). I also met with my new advisor, and she is absolutely wonderful. She assured me I was on the right path. In the same week, I was assigned a video project for CAB.
That day, God not only gave me all the clarity I needed, but He provided everything I had been asking for all in the same day. No, it wasn’t instant. It took more than an entire semester. But, it was all in His timing.
In Matthew 21:18-22, God may have been instant with his miracle, but that’s not always how it works. Remember, “So let’s not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we a will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit.” Galatians 6:9.
God knew I was not ready for these opportunities yet. I don’t blame Him for keeping me waiting since I was doubting Him so much at the time. He knows what I can and cannot handle at any one time. I know for a fact now, that I was not ready for a job, etc, last semester. How much time I wasted doubting Him!
Guys, I know we are all waiting for answers and for prayers to be answered. We all have something. Have faith, because He will come through in His timing, not in ours. Never doubt Him.
"Stay with God! Take heart. Don’t quit. I’ll say it again: Stay with God." Psalm 27:14