Throughout my years of middle school and high school, I looked at my relationship with God as something that would benefit me. I was always concerned with the worldly struggles I was facing, and asked God constantly for one thing after another to help me out. I was never willing to work hard to do better for Him; instead, I thought, hey, He’s God, so He can hook me up with the patience, strength, self-control, and all the other goods I need and get me through the tough stuff easily. Basically, I would use my relationship with God as the easy way out. I never focussed on my weaknesses and tried to make myself better. I didn’t want to put the work in, so I would ask God to do it for me.
When we are weak, and I mean truly weak and not just lazy, God will strengthen us. He loves us & wants us to succeed. He will provide for us when we need it, not when we are too lazy to work.
I still ask God to strengthen me and give me the things I need to get through the day, and sometimes, I am just as lazy as I was back in the day. Building and growing your relationship with God is hard work. It takes constant attention. You can’t have your quiet time, and then forget you had it and not put what you learned into your daily life. You must put in the work.
Something I struggle with a lot in certain seasons of life is staying consistent with spending time with God. I struggle with coming up with excuses like being too busy, too tired, or I don’t feel good. But, the reality of it is that I’m lazy. I want to do my own thing all day long, but when I crawl into bed where I promised myself I’d crack open my Bible today, I end up saying sorry God, not up to it tonight.
Me and Justin started going through a devotional together, and yesterday’s was about how we should give more attention to our relationship with God then we do to our relationships with friends, family, and significant others. We exhaust ourselves trying to keep our relationships with people alive, but we struggle with giving God 5 minutes of our day.
So basically, I’m writing this because this is something I need to fix in my life. I hope I somehow helped you out today too :-)
“Don’t hoard treasure down here where it gets eaten by moths and corroded by rust or—worse!—stolen by burglars. Stockpile treasure in heaven, where it’s safe from moth and rust and burglars. It’s obvious, isn’t it? The place where your treasure is, is the place you will most want to be, and end up being.” Matthew 6:19-21